Project Idea

Thursday I went to a fabric store to get some canvas to turn into photo "paper". There is this process that you can do with liquid emulsion. Basically, it's the photography paper chemicals in a liquid form so that you can brush it onto any material (rocks, glass, fabric, etc.) and make your own photo paper.  For those of you who don't know what I am talking about this type of photo paper is not the kind you print with a machine... this is the kind that cannot see light and you develop the picture in the darkroom. 

Anyways, I get the canvas and put the liquid emulsion on it in the darkroom during class, and while I'm putting it on I come up with this idea for a photo project that I think will be a huge impact on people. See, I think a lot while I'm doing things or in the shower. Those tend to be times where I do a lot of thinking. So, this idea that I have is something I don't know if I want to reveal yet because of how intense it will be and I don't want let people down if I fail at it. 

This project that I want to do is super intense and will be very emotionally and mentally difficult. It is something that will take a lot of research and time and I will definitely not be able to do it while I'm in school. The subject of the idea sounds like something that would be in Time magazine and I have no idea where I would go to find someone to support my idea and help fund it, because let's face it artists don't get enough money to live off of unless you are famous or a wedding photographer. I am really excited about this project but know that by the time I will get to it I will be pretty nervous about it. The picture above is a hint to some of what it is about, but I don't want to give too much away right now until I actually start on it.

The thought of myself become a wedding photographer makes me want to barf.

I have no idea what I am going to do when I get out of school. I should be scared but I could care less right now. I think that is a gift from God.

I've thought about going into the Peace Corps. and am actually in the process of filling out an application. Then I start thinking about why I am applying, "am I just running away from trying to figure out what to do?"..... I don't think so.... I don't know. It would only be two years of my life and I would be helping people out that need my help. I just really hope I don't get stuck with a job that is all about myself and not any good. 

I really want to do good in this world by genuinely helping people that don't have it as good as we do here in the U.S. I want to be like Jesus was.

This post is very scatterbrained so I'm just going to leave it at this.